Lost for words...

         So, I've been sitting here staring at this white blank page since basically yesterday night. I've been telling myself that I need to write another blog, but for some reason I draw a blank when it comes to actually putting words on the page. I have so much I want to talk about and so much I need to talk about, but my brain just isn't connecting to my fingers... Maybe it is just the stress of the upcoming exams, or the desire to finally be home for the holidays. I don't know. I have so much that has been happening lately, good things. It about time... This semester has flown by and been an interesting one to say the least, but it isn't over quite yet, so I won't get into that quite yet. I'll save that for the plane ride home.

          So, to sum up my life in the past few weeks. Over Thanksgiving break, my grandmother had a stroke and ended up in the ICU for a few days and then a few days later got discharged to a rehab hospital, where she has been for the past two or so weeks. I was finally able to go her last friday which was really nice, but also very upsetting for me. Her stroke caused her to have some memory impairments, and she couldn't remember my name, or who I was really when I went to see her. I have begun to collect quite the list of aliases from her. I have been her niece Susan, Christine and Lillian. I worked on a neuro floor earlier this year, so I have worked with multiple stroke patients, so I was surprised when I was so upset after seeing her. It is just so different when it is personal. So I ended up calling my mom in the car in tears... and then the next morning my mom told me she was going to come into Saint Louis for a few days! I cannot begin to explain my excitement. My mother and I are very close, and I hate being so far away from her while at school. When she is around, everything feels calm and safe and I'm just less anxious in general. Hopefully her being here around exams will help me stay somewhat calm and not so stressed out. What else... Clinicals are done for the semester! Well, almost, I have one more Psych clinical on Saturday and then they are done! I am just so ready to go home and be surrounded by family and friends. I am going to the Deb Ball before Christmas and I am so excited about it! My friend Connor, who I went to high school with, and goes to school at Wash U in St. Louis is going with me as my date, and Rebecca and Erin will be there and it is just going to be a lot of fun! So hurry up Christmas Break! Get here already!

          On a completely different note, I was listening to this song tonight, a lot actually and wanted to share with with you. "Take courage when the road is long, don't ever forget you are never alone."