Well, it's that time if the year again. A little less than a week ago was my 21st birthday. Surprisingly, it is really weird for me to think that I am 21. This is what everyone waits for for so long and now that it is here, I really don't feel any different. In fact, saying that I am 21 is kinda weird. I feel so old (which obviously isn't the case...).
I have never really been one to really like birthdays. It has been like that for a while. I know that it is just my personality. I don't like being the center of attention and having everyone focus on me, which is the case with birthdays. And to be completely honest, I have a love-hate relationship with growing older. I want to grow up and continue to grow as a person and I am extremely excited for where my life is going to take me. I can't wait to experience new things, have grand adventures and one day way in the future settle down and start a new life with someone. However, on the other hand, growing up scares me. I'm scared of not knowing where life is going to take me. I'm not ready to give up "being a kid" or "being young". I guess it is time that I start getting used to it though considering that growing up is inevitable. The ship to Neverland already set sail.
I guess if I do have to grow older, I might as well celebrate it surrounded by my family and my best friends. Turning 21 is such a special year, and I could not have asked for a better way to spend it. It was definitely a night to remember, and one that thankfully I actually will remember :) I was so fortunate that both my mom and my little sister were able to come into town for my birthday weekend. I was so happy that I was able to spend time catching up and hanging out with my little sister. After Ellen flew in Friday night we had dinner at my aunts and then just hung out all night at the house. Saturday was spent just the two of us. We went to the art museum, to lunch a Blueberry Hill and then shopping at the Loop and the Galleria. I forgot how much I love hanging out with Ellen and how funny she is. I think that this sister bonding time was just what the both of us needed. We have each had a pretty rough year in our own ways, and i think that spending a weekend together was just what we needed to get our minds off of things. I had tons of fun and I only hope that she had just as much fun.
Saturday night was the night. The night of my birthday party. The night that I turned 21 at midnight. I don't know any other way to describe it than that it was absolutely perfect. I could not have asked for a better night. My sister was there to celebrate with me, I was surrounded by my best friends, our party had a southern theme and I got to wear a gold sequins dress. How could the night get anymore perfect?????? It was a night full of dancing, smiling, singing and laughing. At midnight I even got to go to Humphrey's to take a shot of my plunger (it is a Saint Louis tradition). The only way the night could have been any more perfect was if some of my friends from back home were there to celebrate with me. I know that they wished they could have been there too. However, since they couldn't be there, I just had to imagine that they were there in spirit. It was a night I will never forget. It was perfect.
I guess now that I am technically a legal adult, I should probably begin to accept that fact. Don't you think so? I may no longer be a kid but I refuse to completely lose the child in me. I still have a childlike heart. I don't know if I will ever lose that.
Here's to being another year older and another year of laughing and smiling. Here's to another year full of wonderful memories.
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