Waiting

          So, I will admit, I have a slight obsession with Pinterest. But then again, what girl doesn't? Pinterest is most definitely my go to when I am procrastinating, bored in class, or having nothing to do. Today was the latter. One of my favorite sections is "quotes" and today while reading through them, I read this quote by Lemony Snicket and for some reason I couldn't get it out of my head, which isn't a bad thing considering I love this quote.

          "If we wait until we're ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives." It makes you think doesn't it? I know for a fact that it has made me think about my life.

          We all have things that we are waiting for, whether it be to find true love, an apology, or an answer to a question endlessly cycling through our minds. Have you ever thought that maybe it isn't that we are waiting for these things to come find us. Maybe we are waiting until that moment when we are ready to try and find them; waiting until we have the courage and the strength to actually do something about the things we want and need. Maybe it isn't that we physically can't be ready, but that we are afraid to be ready. That might be an odd thing to say. If people are waiting for something, they obviously want it, so you would think that they would do anything to end that wait. Clearly that isn't the case because people are still waiting, I know I am still waiting for many things. So what is it that is holding us back? Why are we waiting to be ready? Is it that we are afraid that if we don't wait until we are ready we will get hurt, or lose what we care most about? I know for a fact that this is what keeps me waiting on a lot of things. I'm waiting until I am ready or think that I am strong enough to forgive someone who has hurt me. I'm waiting until I am ready to decide what I am supposed to do with my life. I am waiting until I am ready to let people into my life and trust them. We are all guilty of this no matter how hard we try to deny it. Just accept it. We wait until we are ready. But in reality there is a good chance that we never will be ready. So if that is what you are waiting for, you are going to be waiting for a very long time. You will be waiting for the rest of your life.

            Are we ever really ready? Probably not, as much as I don't want that to be true. If we wait until we are ready we have no idea how much we are missing out on in the meantime. Maybe if we quit waiting and try and do something about this, in our new journey we will find what we were looking for in the first place. It's scary, well at least for me it is. When I am not ready, I feel vulnerable, like I can't control anything and afraid. I'm afraid that I am going to let myself get hurt emotionally, or disappoint myself. Even though those things scare me, I know that they aren't always bad things because I have found that it is when I am the most vulnerable and scared that I learn the most about myself and realize how strong I actually am. Yet, I still have that little voice inside me telling myself to wait until I am ready. I don't what to wait for something until I am ready. I don't want to spend my whole life waiting and miss so many wonderful things are put before me. So let's not wait until we are ready, or life will pass you by in the blink of an eye. Life is for living, not waiting. What is holding you back? It may be scary and the outcome may not be what you expect it to be, but something good will come of it whether you see it or not.

          As one of my favorite songs by Passenger says, "Life's for the living, so live it. Or you're better off dead."